YOU

You did it again
You did hurt my heart
I don’t know how many times
You… I don’t know what to say
You’ve made me so desperately in love
and now you let me down
You said you’d never lie again
You said this time would be so right
But then I found you were lying there by her side

You.. You turn my whole life so blue
Drowning me so deep, I just can't reach myself again
You.. Successfully tore myheart
Now it’s only pieces
Nothing left but pieces of you

You frustated me with this love
I’ve been trying to understand
You know i’m trying i’m trying
You.. I don’t know what to say
You’ve made me so desperately in love
and now you let me down

You said you’d never lie again
You said this time would be so right
But then I found you were lying there by her side

You.. You turn my whole life so blue
Drowning me so deep, I just can't reach myself again
You.. Successfully tore myheart
Now it’s only pieces
Nothing left but pieces of you

by : ten 2 five

20 Months Anniversary

3 January 2010.

on our 20 months anniversary.....

we broke up.............



i dont mind...
he's a jerk, btw

thank god, u showed me the right way ;)

i just wanna say goodbye.
byebye badass!!

barbies soccer shirt!

hey, did u remember about "barbies soccer shirt"? udah jadi looooh :) :)

2009

things that i wont forget in 2009

• Bemsmart 8th

• Arinta's Birthday

• Came back and broke up again with R.
  

• Ramadhanya's birthday

• When i saw that birthday photos at pure, damn fuck!

• Singapore-Malaysia

• Puncak

• Oh~La~La Incident
  

• 3 May 2009, my first year anniversary with somebody else boyfriend --"
  

• Riri's Birthday

• Girls days out in Catherine's apartmen almost everyday! damn i love it!
  

• when my life was miserable and messed up, and i became a very rude girl. no no, NOT AGAIN!

• Pulau Seribu

• someone has sent me a message and she was sudden mocking me! what was ur point, bitch? i dont get it!

• MOS 2009

• Reynaldi Imandaris Putra :)
  

• R, Again *sigh*
  

• Jogjakarta

• My 18th Birthday

• New Year's Eve with my BM9 at Bandung :D
  

• And many more....

Well 2009 is not a good year for me. but i learned so much from my pain, and my suffer until i became stronger ;) Goodbye 2009, and welcome 2010. I really expect something better!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! HAVE A GREAT DAY!

SMOOOCCCCHHH,
Amila

Happy Birthday dear, Amila :)

8 Desember 2009..

pukul 00.00
KarinaDeo dateng kerumah bawa martabak, trs mereka 4 bulanan.. Trs curhat-curhat deh..

pukul 00.31
Ryan datang ke rumah bawa kueee! Uh its so sweet, he said "Happy birthday dear, im wishing you all the best" and then kissed my forehead.


after school, in tendu...
di cegat gak boleh pulang, dan for the first time of my life, dan sebuah kado yang paling gak pernah gue harapkan dan gue ga suka........... yep, gue di ceplokin! but it was fun tho --"


The Dinner.....
makan-makan pizza & spagethi with my lovely basbin and of course my love, ryan :)
after that we watched Paranormal Activity! We were scared.. (i mean, they were scared.. and of course i wasn't!)


thank you for everyone who involved at my 18th birthday. it's lovely and unforgetable! Love you.

xxoo,
Amila

i swear it hurts

i swear it hurts when i just found out about my boyf who was sent a voice note to his ex and told her how much he missed her and he said "love you".

oh dear God,
how could i show him that i actually still mad at him? and i'm really dissapointed with him?
but i just too blind and i just fell too deeply in love with him.. oh yeah im such a moron, i really dont know what i have to do. should i just sit down and silent??

Big fun night <3

makrab tanggal 17 Oktober 2009, di rumah isat.. makrab pertama kita ini di bikin sama cowok-cowok.. sweet banget mereka dari sehari sebelumnya pada belanja di carrefour, hihi.. trs kita (cewek2) pada penasaran gimana hasilnya.. dan akhirnya semalem sebelum makrab kita pada nyusul ke rumah isat.. ada alvin, reza, dkk pd lg tusuk2in daging buat barbeque.. dan cewek-cewek kaget ternyata APA ternyata DAGINGNYA UDAH PUCET.. hahahaha akhirnya kita lgs buru2 nyari es sm coolerbox buat dinginin daging supaya gak basi.. lucu banget cowok2.. abis nusuk2in daging.. trs kita main perang balon air.. tiba-tiba si reja lepas celana sm baju dan tinggal pake boxer doang alhasil diceburin lah dia.. trs alvin diceburin juga.. dan yg paling parah tuthe ikut diceburin :l kasian dia huhu... begini nih, belum makrabnya aja udah seruu hihi..

besoknyaaaa, gue sampe dirumah isat.. udah lumayan rame.. dan sayang sekali hujaaan :( untungnya ujannya ga terlalu lama abis ujan kita kumpul2 di depan kolam renang sambil ngobrol-ngobrol.. dan ujungnya... cebur2an.... ok pertama cowok-cowok cebur2an, trs cewek mulai ditarik2, dan mostly pd berhasil lolos.. trs abis itu pas gue lg narik ayu dan udh 99% berhasil di pinggir kolam renang TIBA TIBA gue ngerasa ada yg dorong gue dr belakang dan akhirnya BYURRRRRRRRRRR! thank god! gue kecebur dan gue cewek pertama! dan ga ada yang mau ngaku siapa yg dorong gue.... ckckck.. (tapi akhirnya raffi ngaku kok) lalu disusul oleh tuthe dan ayu.. cuma 3 cewek yg berhasil diceburin.. sedangkan cowok2 udah parah banget mainan cebur2annya sampe di seret2, di telanjangin dulu hahahaha.... seru banget deh pokoknya!

malem itu bener-bener berharga banget buat gue dan angkatan gue :') you know guys? i really had a great time with y'all... and we had a very big fun ryt? i love you all guys :*